PART 2 of " A TEAR OF FAILURE" :-

What was that shiny thing sliding down and down...
up and down past every freckle and frown....
like a snake on a desert so thin and sleek
aah!! but its a tear, trickling down my rosy cheek!!

what lay behind that tear

remains in my mind, to date, fresh and clear....
you were a figure so tall and bold,
and to you i was more than a pot of gold!!.
which , with utmost care and devotion, you tried to mould...
your hand so big and warm,
clutched my little finger with care and charm..

you showed me those far away hills,

i should reach them you said, and it still drills..
the path was long, it bore thorns and flowers..
you said it all thrills,
it was like climbing the tallest towers..
sheer joy in you, it fills.

we plopped into the endless fields,
and here you taught me to harvest the crop..
never once letting my hand drop
you showed me, when i cried, the beautifully colourful fair,
for you didn't want me to sit in solitaire..
you bought me those shining glass bangles,
just to see them reflect my priceless giggles...

you wanted me to walk my talk
and at others, i never wanted to mock...
you wanted me to give others a warm smile,
and i wanted to help them walk another mile...
you wanted me to give others all that's best
and i wanted to care not whats the rest...
you wanted me to wipe every dropping tear,

and i wanted to drive out their every monstrous fear...
you wanted me to play, for life is a game,
and i wanted to earn u great name and fame...
you wanted me to spread all round me, the purest of love,
and i wanted to love you, my treasure trove...

my little feet have trotted the path you've shown,
under your love and protection, I've grown...
a blossoming flower... away I got blown!!
should I cry at your loss?? or just moan?

I've walked half up the hill, always at your heel,
where do i stand now?? lost and lonely i feel!!
I'm still your dear little pup,
your lessons have filled just half my cup!!

To god I pray,

and thus begin my everyday..
hoping one day, safe u'll return.....
this desire of mine.........it'll always burn!!!

Very Strange..!!

It all seems so strange to me.. what kinda changes time can bring along... It was not more than a year back that i had made a promise to my friend that wht might come, i will not get into this ... i will never get deceived by the looks.. i knw wht can happen.. i'l never do it!!

I have promises to keep up; and goals to achieve; and better dreams to dream and fulfill here.. Infact, it was a promise that we made to each other.. and here i stand one year down the lane... I bear d guilt of having broken my promise and there she stands dancing away to glory merrily.. with her head high!! yup, she could so far keep up that promise she once made to her friend.. I just realise wht kinda changes time can bring upon you.. U never know whts destined fr u!!

As i stand here bearing the guilt of having broken down that promise.. You might wonder why i don't cry much over it.. it's cuz u c.. once you get into it.. u can't hold urself back!! u'l do things u never once loved doing and see things you never once imagined in d wildest of ur dreams u will... and u will feel every moment of ur life to be so pristine.. d way you never felt it before!! and u'l feel a happiness.. that knows no bounds!! u might have some very long nights.. with ur mind filled of thoughts.. but each thought will just bring u sheer joy and not let u feel deprived of ur sleep!!!
u'l realise it's an altogether different world!! with only one most conspicuous or more accurately,just one and "the only feeling" prevalent there!! and u'l get into it to such an extent, now i guess i cant even call it neck-deep.. it's deeper than that.. and then there's no place for other things.. other feelings.. for guilty or for repentance or anything else..

Does it all just seem like bits of trash and crap and shit?? Phew.. all ears u nerds and the dumb brained (scatterbrains, better-said!!) who knw not yet and are beginning to lose their senses.., it's no use me telling you.. u'l never knw wht it's all 'bout..

But hmm lemme c.. i think u need to knw, to avoid the presumably weird and large number of assumptions and conclusions u may make, it's just all 'bout a very strange world..one that has made it difficult for me to come back here.. :( :P

A Tear of Failure

what was that??
A shiny thing sliding down and down...
up and down past every freckle and frown....
like a snake on a desert so thin and sleek
aah!! but its a tear, trickling down my rosy cheek!!

what lay behind that tear
remains till date, in my mind, fresh and clear....
days and nights of sweat and toil ,
have slipped off like loose soil..
long and sleepless nights of enduring pain,
all in vain, just washed away in the drain..
my weary eyes held tales of struggle,
'afore's your destined triumph', signaled my bugle...
i worked and worked,never once looking back,
always keen not to lose track...
my eyes remained focused on the bull's eyes,
but alas, it was all just a feeble try!!
all my dreams and visions of triumph and victory,
shattered... it's still a mystery...


long gone into the past .. D treasure trove
of happiness i once sought!
what remains ahead seems to be a fruitless grove!!
the fruit of the battle i fought!!
and now, all round me sorrows galore...
i sit behind the tightly shut door..

i had walked a long mile,
and have forgotten even to smile..
but it's time to recapitulate that old sweet dream..
it assures , "like the sun, you too will gleam" !!
yes, all has tumbled down to the core
leaving behind a wound so sore...
none can assure that the best is still afore...
but, i'll combat stronger than before!!


here i sow, all my effort again!, just a seed!!
it'll soon grow into a tree, and i am bound to succeed!! ;)